Post by Squishy on Jan 21, 2009 15:30:17 GMT -4
I've been struggling lately with the scale. It has my emotions all over the place. One day I will be frustrated by the number not moving. Another day, I got a whoosh and saw myself in the 100's. Then, I was somehow up again and back in the 200's.
Devastating.
I know that folks say that it's not the number, not to worry about it. I just wonder how I'm not going to worry about it if I have to look at it. *laughs* I don't know if I know how to NOT judge myself by results on the scale. If I work my tail off and none of that shows on the scale, it's a painful pill to swallow. How do you other gals deal with that?
I've thought that maybe what I need to do for a little while is a "blind weigh-in". Basically, I could let my husband handle the number on the scale for me. All I would have to do is close my eyes and step on the scale. He can keep track of my numbers, because he's not going to cry if I don't lose a pound! *chuckles*
I don't know if it will work for me, but I've thought that at least having a couple of weeks away from the numbers and the pressure might be good. Maybe that would help me to regain focus on being healthy, not so much on being lighter. My brain knows that light does not equal fit, but the pressure to fit a mold has been with me my whole life. What my head knows, my heart does not. Apparently, they are warring right now. My head looks at the pile of jeans that I can wear now, that have been sitting in a drawer for 2 years, just waiting on me. My head is happy that I have hip bones that I can feel, and that I look all flat and slim when I recline. My heart though, it can't see anything but that '2' at the beginning of my weight. Even the small losses that I am having, aren't lifting my spirits. Oh, the frustration of having numbers in my head all of the time!
Maybe even something so small as a 2 or 3 week reprieve from seeing the numbers will help. I don't know about that, but it is a thought.
Devastating.
I know that folks say that it's not the number, not to worry about it. I just wonder how I'm not going to worry about it if I have to look at it. *laughs* I don't know if I know how to NOT judge myself by results on the scale. If I work my tail off and none of that shows on the scale, it's a painful pill to swallow. How do you other gals deal with that?
I've thought that maybe what I need to do for a little while is a "blind weigh-in". Basically, I could let my husband handle the number on the scale for me. All I would have to do is close my eyes and step on the scale. He can keep track of my numbers, because he's not going to cry if I don't lose a pound! *chuckles*
I don't know if it will work for me, but I've thought that at least having a couple of weeks away from the numbers and the pressure might be good. Maybe that would help me to regain focus on being healthy, not so much on being lighter. My brain knows that light does not equal fit, but the pressure to fit a mold has been with me my whole life. What my head knows, my heart does not. Apparently, they are warring right now. My head looks at the pile of jeans that I can wear now, that have been sitting in a drawer for 2 years, just waiting on me. My head is happy that I have hip bones that I can feel, and that I look all flat and slim when I recline. My heart though, it can't see anything but that '2' at the beginning of my weight. Even the small losses that I am having, aren't lifting my spirits. Oh, the frustration of having numbers in my head all of the time!
Maybe even something so small as a 2 or 3 week reprieve from seeing the numbers will help. I don't know about that, but it is a thought.
